Im 100$ away from my first payout and im nervous

Hi everyone

As the post says, how did you deal with this? Before this i have never been to funded stage, failed around 4 evals. Took some months off, worked on finding my own edge. Figured out something, bought a new eval 2 weeks ago, passed it on the first week, and now im 100$ away from requesting my first ever payout. I haven't had a single red day in last 2 weeks but now im scared af, i couldn't even take one single trade today for the fear of losing. Not even with 1 micro contract. This shit is hitting me hard.

How did yll deal with this?