dopamine receptors are fried

the dommes who tell you that $100 feels like $10 after doing it for a while are being truthful. when i first started four years ago, each and every send made me jump for joy and even feel extremely turned on. it's safe to say that now, while of course i still feel excited and sometimes horny over what i make, i also feel extremely jaded! like what do you mean i made the most i've ever made in april yet it still doesn't feel like enough??? i know i can't be the only one experiencing this 😞

to reiterate, i am eternally and deeply grateful for findom and the money i make! but it's more so just the fact i think it has literally affected the way my dopamine works in my brain!