Abusive, Misogynist , ect Family , How do i just live my life as a teen girl ?

🔴If you are stuck at the same thing or made it past it pls help me out i want to hear your story🔴

I am 14 turning 15 this year , my parents are both religious to a point and getting beaten as a kid was pretty much normal in my house whether with a pipe hard stick or belt when ever me or my siblings would get them mad

i was a bubbly kid who would socialize with almost anyone and talkative so this one time siblings friend came over [a boy] i walked in front of him instead of just poke my head to call my sibling or that's what my dad thought after that i got the hardest beating when i only poked my head through the door and i was less then 6 year old , fast forward my mom keeps on always giving my dad reason to beat us up since apparently bad kids need to be taught a lesson years after she has always been doing that for a full year straight she also got abused by my dad we always stood with her trying to stop him but nothing helps since his the oldest and the man of the house ,

every time a fight breaks out we don't try to solve it but go on the next day like nothing happened which probably got us to a worse case then before

i attend a cousin dad side wedding [ i am related by mom side] i wore a long dress at the time , i tried to dance and had fun with my cousin , a few months after i find out the grandpa kept on commenting about me not in a child friendly way [ i have always looked older then my age since a young age] and the uncle asking to join the family picture when i don't really know him and he kept his hand in a weird uncomfortable way

then came the worst years of my life where i was held back from going to school due to financial issues for 2 years but before leaving schools i had high grades but in those 2 years i was stuck at home lost all friends and had no one , and when trying to argue to my dad to let me go out or do what i want like a sports hobby he would say no a girls place is her house or a hobby is reading a book

when he would literally not take me to school but would pay for my brother's to take football monthly because apparently becoming a football players is more important and successful then studying and getting a degree and working a job that will pay you less then a football player [ think of it as joe Jackson but for football

so far recently i went back to school but i don't want to be such an ungrateful person but after going back its like i couldn't socialize its feels like my throat is chained up i didn't make friends and my mom is making everything worst with always cursing at me for not doing house chores when i have been serving them the whole 2 years i haven't went to school and also they say boys should not clean or do that sort of things its a girls job

any advice, and Thank you so much for reading till the end i know its alot sorry