Really lost. Looking for advice

I'm a 23m. Finished a computer science bachelor's in nay of 2025. I hoped to move out after college, but I really wasn't able to. I'm in a vhcol area, and the only job I was able to get was at a store for $19/hour, overnight, part time. 25 hours a week. I went, not like I have anything else to look towards. Working 40 hours won't change anything.

I've been waking up at 2am and coming back "home" at 9am. I desperately wanted to move out, I don't have a good relationship with my parents at all. But making less than 40,000 a year isn't nearly enough to support yourself without getting into debt.

I haven't learned anything from the job, either. Just going through the motions. I've been making applications here and there, but I never get any responses. I regret my bachelor's, now. I can't go back in time. I'm not that interested anymore, either.

I at least graduated debt free. My parents charge a minimal amount for rent, so I have about 15k saved. It's sad, when you consider I make less than 2000 a month. Needed to save almost every penny for almost 10 months to get that. And home prices grew faster than that.

If I was in worse circumstances, I could 1000% see myself doing what the warehouse fire guy did.

I dont know what to do, honestly. I'm debating giving up on saving - it won't get me anywhere - and starting to take up smoking and drinking.

I'm losing my grip on reality as time goes on now. Time is slipping through my fingers like sand. I just wanted a job I could support myself on where I could learn and move up eventually.

Help. Please. Anyone. Should I just cut my losses short?