Another venting session lol

I feel better whenever I vent here sooo yeah, I’m back at it again.

I am so overwhelmed with everything rn. I just want to skip all of this.
About to move to a new place and have to leave yet another home behind. I’ll start an apprenticeship soon that I am not the right person for, don’t even know why I was accepted in the first place. I’ll probably not even be able to attend the first day.
On top of everything else: family issues and just me giving up on dating as a whole. „Just put yourself out there“ „the right person will come along“, shut the fuck up.

I want to cut so bad. Idk how to cope with all of this. I can’t deal with this, it’s all too much.
Sometimes I have the impulse to text ppl and tell them that I’ll kill myself. I would never do such a thing (obviously, it’s giving manipulative and as if I’m trying to guilt trip them or some). I am also not suicidal so I have no idea where that impulse comes from.

Sry for any errors. Stay safe and much love to anyone who’s reading this crap❤️