brain is convinced i’ll get in trouble for a mistake at work

im a barista, and today i did something that i’ve been thinking of since i got home at 12 (it’s 5pm now).

i struggle sometimes with keeping all my stress and frustration in at work, especially during a rush or if im confused. today we had someone mobile order a drink, but when she came in she asked if we could make it in her own cup. i already made it, but my coworker said he would ring it through again. so i started to make it in her cup, but then she stopped me and told me she’ll take the original drink. there was also a language barrier, so i had to ask her a few times (and i guess my tone wasn’t the best) what she had wanted.

i noticed after that the coworker who rang the drink through had gone to the back to talk to the supervisor. about 10 minutes later, the supervisor asked to talk to me. my coworker had gone to her about my reaction in the moment. so she talked to me, i told her what happened on my end and also that i had just had a rough morning in general. i’m also waiting to hear the results of a recent barista championship i participated in on Monday and im anxious about that too

i talked to my friend and my boyfriend, i don’t think ill get in trouble with my manager. my supervisor said she wouldn’t tell the manager, but that coworker (who’s also a supervisor but wasn’t on a supervisor shift) and the manager are friends. so i don’t know if he’ll tell her or not.

my brain is telling me that i’m gonna get in trouble or get fired. realistically i know i probably won’t, im a really good barista and ive been doing better with those moments but i still mess up. i think i have a fear of authority figures in generally (ESPECIALLY managers) and ugh it’s just been a very anxiety filled day/week