I hate myself I hate myself so much

I'm a 18 year old girl my name is Paisley Jane and I am everything you don't want to be I'm bully and people don't let me forget it I'm mean and rude and people don't let me forget that I'm no talented I cannot name one thing I'm good at I am so ugly if you were to see me in real life you would agree I'm ugly I'm so fat and you think I could do to lose weight it just backfires on me I'm sick in the head I am so dumb there is nothing going on in my head I have these ugly seizures that make me look like I'm possessed. I have these nasty cuts and burns all over my body my own family doesn't want to be around me do not think of one thing that I like about me