should i even hide the fact that i don’t fw her anymore?

hi guys, so basically the story is yesterday. I was going to pick her up from her house because she asked me to so we could go to a place and study but on the way there I got into a car accident which resulted me in 1000 for fixing my car and also 10k for my insurance next year so on top of that today we were around a couple of friends and the topic maturity came up because I was talking about how someone is so mature and she goes. Oh you wouldn’t know a thing about mature. I’m sorry what the fuck bro OK for the accident I’m not blaming her well I kinda am I guess right now, but I’m trying my best to fix my resentment towards her because today whenever she would touch me I would genuinely be biologically disgusted and not want her to touch me because I’m having a defense mechanism and I keep on thinking it is her fault that my car got hit but no, it’s myself that I fucked up and I understand that but today, why is she saying this bullshit to me and then when I said OK you made me mad she said oh you know I’m joking, blah blah blah what the hell bro? I’m so pissed like what no consideration at all for me.