Im so tired of being alone

I turned 20 a few months ago and I have nothing, absolutely nothing to show for it relationship wise, I have friends but I've never found connection with anyone, I am a lil quirky and I am fairly awkward but I just want to meet someone I can spend my time with, I've never even been able to hold a conversation with a woman before, I try but I stutter, freeze and end up looking like a creep. All my friends have someone in there life, and everyone around me is happy but I feel as though i have been in darkness throughout my whole life, and I understand that I'm not meant to meet someone when I'm in this state, but it's all I've ever felt. Can anyone relate, I can't be the only one that feels like this