Entry #1 | I wish I was treated like a normal human being

In every group I partipicate, I always stand out, don't fit in, or get negative treatment. Everywhere I go I was always different from people, and these people either appreciated it or bullied me to oblivion for it. I look at people; they're normal, they're being treated like a normal human being, while I get bad looks and weird out people.

I never look at people the way they look at me; I always try my best to be a good friend, a good lover, a good stranger for them, but most of the time I don't get the same treatment. Sometimes I wish I wasn't like this. I even think that I am disgusting sometimes. They're special, and I wish I was special too, but no; I am weird. I sometimes envy the love and interaction those people get. It hurts my heart.

All I want is love and respect, and sometimes that is pretty impossible to give me for most people