I Think I’d Like Being Groped

I think sometimes it is hard for me to talk to people, but I can understand that they want to approach me. I just don’t know what to say and it’s always awkward because i’m shy, or worse I walk away. So I think I have this need somewhere in my brain that just wants for people to grope me instead, go to the point and then I can be shy while you hug me so I can’t really think of running away.
It’s silly I don’t know why I want this specifically, I don’t wear reviling clothes so I know I’m not inviting anyone to touch me. I don’t like wearing bras because it hurts and panties tend to get wet and it’s uncomfortable sometimes, so I wear them mostly on my period, but no one notices cause I’m really modest and I wear layers.
I don’t know, I would just like for people to just put an arm around my shoulders and grab my tit so I don’t make things awkward or to just put an arm around my side and grab my tit.
If I think about it it’s like an ambush to an unaware animal so maybe it has a natural root somewhere. This is a new thing for me so if anyone can explain or Idk those anyone else have the same need? Is this a sign that i’m more “corrupted”?