Had an emotional affair with a stranger on Reddit

I found myself on this app about two years ago. I had just had a baby and was feeling self conscious and my husband and I for the first time ever were struggling in our marriage. So I decided to post a nude to see what people said on one of the subs. It was fun to read the messages but I never responded or accepted them. Long story short this charmer slides into my DMs somehow in one of those Reddit glitches where their messages keep reappearing to accept or deny even after it’s been denied, if you follow? lol so somehow within all that we began talking. He was in a marriage of 20 years, but his wife cheated and it changed his perspective on how he wanted to live life. And here I was in a totally different part of my life, having a baby, in the deepest part postpartum depression and struggling in a marriage to feel seen and appreciated. Idk what it was but it felt like the stars aligned and there was some type of connection. We just knew how to be there for the other and our banter was off the charts. I was always laughing or smiling at my phone. Over the next year we talked pretty much everyday (when we could with the time differences). We sent pictures and shared pieces of our “realities”. appropriate and inappropriate texting 🙈we pretty much shared everything. Then at the one year point we shared our real identities/became friends on other socials and shortly after my husband and I found out we were pregnant and he had made the decision to leave his marriage. we live in different countries so it would never really work or make sense, which we’ve always known but my pregnancy and his divorced really changed the dynamic and made ua realize the longer we went this way the more wed hurt ourselves in the end. He’s now in a new relationship. We talk less and less but I think we’ll always be in each others lives in some type of way. While I know having an emotional affair behind my husbands back is wrong, it’s also hard to explain how right it felt meeting this other individual and the trust and openness we both were able to share on such a platform. 💙💛