trying not to kms by bettering myself

well, today has just been rough! i won’t go into detail sine it’s heavily personal, but i’m going to say that it was a lot. a lot for me to constantly overthink and take deep breaths. i feel suicidal, but i don’t. it’s weird. i have this midnight motivation where i want to better myself, and i’m gonna try to. i’m going to AT LEAST try, and do it. stop worrying about others and just focusing on myself, bettering myself, being better, making better decisions and meeting new people (hopefully). idk how long this motivation will last, and idk if it’s very impulsive, but i’m going to try.