Me(20m) and my bf(24m)went on a break

Context, I've had a rough life and it's a whole list but RN I'm unemployed and living with my parents again and I'm trying everyday to find jobs and get the ball rolling cause I need my life back

So this is premature but I don't know what to do half of me wants to drop him but the other I'm falling hard for him

So about 2 weeks ago me and him met we hit it off want the same things in life and within the first couple days I went to his place and we got intimate we had a great time got close quickly

He makes a lot of money and takes care of his roommate momentarily and talked about helping me find a job moving me in whenever it's possible and basically taking care of me although I never expected him to

Which part of me was fine with but the other part I want to make my own money good money and provide for him as he would for me and honestly we compliment each other's strengths and weaknesses so far

We spent 4 days together before I went home and we talked about everything setting boundaries and expectations and then 2 more days over another weekend

But he is having financial troubles, he broke up with me or more so went on a break cause in the past with women he thinks I'll use him for his money and can't fully trust a relationship until I make money

Which I get and we haven't know each other that long so. It's understandable. And he is bringing his straight relationship mentality into our situation

But I feel like I wasn't even given a chance to show him what I could bring to the table, and if I'm written off or have to prove myself just to have him in my life then I seriously don't want him in mine

That's one more thing I have to worry about that I shouldn't have to

Most of the reason we went on a break was so he could focus on his financial problems, he's still helping me get things in order for myself

But I was written off without a second thought is what it feels like

I've been wronged so many times in my life and I don't wanna do that to him far from it. I haven't clicked with someone like this in. Ever

We say I love you back and forth and mean it, or so I think but if u love someone wouldn't even in the little sense it is for a brand new relationship wouldn't u try to have that person around and see what their faults are?

Also I date to marry and he wanted to date me to possibly marry in the future, in the past he slept around a good bit not a whole lot

And we agreed to keep being intimate, and giving each other attention when our schedules allow but if he's sleeping around that's fine we aren't together right now but I refuse to be another side and be intimate when I have no clue where those other people have been or what they have been up to

I haven't been in many relationships cause I'm picky and I don't do super DL casual.

I'm in love, as much as I hate to say it cause I didn't even wanna date for many years to come till I met him and I wanna do better cause of him for my health and situation.

Disclaimer, I have bpd I do have mood swings especially when triggered.

I have PTSD, anxiety depression and autism

And I manage very well cause I have taken the time to learn how to but it does get to me and it's driving me kind of nuts having such little contact right now with busy schedules and his issues being taken care of as much as I want to help but can't.

It's a word vomit I apologize to any who have read this