fucking my toxic situationship(F20) (M36)

We hooked up before and it was great but since then there's been a lot of back and forth about a lot of things. The one thing we agreed on is that we have a lot of sexual chemistry. Whenever we talk I get wet just off his voice. We decided to meet at his house, we didn't even plan anything specific but I know he's a freak so of course he did. He had a lot of bdsm type stuff that he suggested and of course I was down. I've never tried any of that and was a little scared, but he kissed me and told me we could do it on my terms. I wanted to please him so whatever he wants is on my terms. First he tied me up to each side of the bed, so my legs were open and I couldn't truly move. Then he blind folded me. During all of this he was kissing my neck and telling me I was such a good girl for him. Then he put a ball gag on me. I could only moan for him. Then he went down on me. I'm very sensitive and it was so overstimulating in the best way. I didn't know what he was gonna do or where he was gonna go. He touched my chest and squeezed my nipples, hard. I loved it in the best way. I was close and he could tell so he went back and chuckled. I moaned in distress and at that moment he tied what I think was a collar around my neck. He then pulled me up so and bit my neck some more. I was moaning at this and then he pulled back and left. I'm not sure for how long, I was getting impatient. Then I heard footsteps and a slight buzz. I was a little scared but also very intrigued. Was it a vibrator? that it was. He put it inside me and I could barely take it. Pushing my hips upward. Trying to tell him I need him. Maybe he got it because he pushed inside. while the vibrator was still in me.. Could barely take it. He went hard too, didn't even care. Was slapping me at the same time. I felt numb at a certain point, came multiple times yet he was still fucking me, still choking me. He told me to smile for the camera. I didn't know how long he was recording. Most likely the entire time. I stuck my tongue out and he pulled out. he came inside my mouth. I smiled and swallowed, exhausted/happy but felt so used. He took the blindfold off and the gag. also untied me. I felt so exposed. He knew this and kissed me softly while also still holding my neck tight. Showing that he was still in control. And would always be I guess.

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