Day 1

Recently diagnosed with ADHD 2 weeks ago, medicated with Adderall. Finally have focus but I’ll fall into a hole for 6-8 hours. The feeling of Adderall and PMO was a new feeling and I’ve been battling with the urges.

I have officially finished my first day PMO FREE while using Adderall as a tool to complete my errands and tasks for school, work, and going to the gym successfully.

I became more aware of how horrible I felt when one night after work, I was falling asleep and I could hear almost a demonic evil laugh. I must of been between awake and asleep because I knew it wasn’t real but it was so loud and clear. I must of been delirious from barely sleeping from my new medication. (I prioritized sleep now)

I don’t know how to interpret it. Other than it was something evil laughing at me. It knew I was entangled and I was losing. I was watching worse porn each time, longer hours and my free time was non-existent whenever I had it.

But today, I did it. I’m day 1 free. Praise God. I’ve been begging and praying for at least one day of productiveness without PMO.

We got this, I pray we will keep fighting. I deleted instagram, TikTok and the worst one in my opinion is X. Social media is a gateway drug into porn. I did download instagram and deleted it when I was finished studying to check my messages. It’s a work in progress but I believe these are my main triggers.

There’s no luck, willpower, or trying. Just do. I hope I will build better habits to support this new goal to make it easier.

Your friend, RespawnStronger.