prom disappointment

hello! so my prom is today (it’s past 12am) may 2nd and i have no one to go to prom with. i have no friends that want me in their group and i don’t have a date. it’s genuinely one of the most humiliating things ever to not have friends but to go to prom without a group or even someone else is really upsetting and degrading. i’ve lost a lot of friends this year for stuff i say being straight forward instead of sugar coating stuff even when they were already on edge about me and now just don’t like me at all. my previous best friend which i went to homecoming with this year, has started to turn on me as well. she doesn’t answer my texts, she doesn’t randomly send me reels/tiktok’s anymore, she doesn’t make time for me which isn’t bad but with her fangirling over one of her other friends that they just became close this year (me and the girl have been friends for 5 years now) and will ignore me to talk to the other people around me even when im trying to have a conversation, it just feels so degrading. i have no friends my age. all of my other friends are older than me or much younger than me. my life is really crumbling at the moment as well and it’s hard to have a steady heart when all i’ve done for the past 3 weeks is feel overwhelmed with humiliation, sadness, and disappointment. long story short or what happened to me 3 weeks ago, i had marching band leadership auditions and i got demoted from field commander to a captain which for those that don’t know what a field commander is, it’s one step away from becoming drum major which has been my goal since i joined that band in 2022. i quit. my life recently has been my grades declining, happiness is rare for me, energy is always low, and my embarrassment skyrocketed. anyways, all i want are friends my age which i can’t seem to get a hold of. i’ve tried looking up every tactic to be a better person but nothing works. i should’ve switched schools when i had the chance because then id have friends. i watchd a MLP: EG mini movie a while ago and rh moral of it was basically it’s not about not being mean to someone but not being nice. I keep that with me more than i should recently because it’s how i’ve been feeling. no one recently has said anything rude to me however no one has made that effort to really reach out and try to be my friend either which isn’t bad per say but it’s damaged my self worth. all i wanna say is happy prom everyone, i still will be going to prom because i’ve bought everything i need and ill be over it by the summer but yeah. thanks for reading and im sorry for any typos! (got my nails done silver to match my accessories! black halter dress silver shoes!)