what to do!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Mera ek 3 saal ka relationship tha,jo jan 2025 ko break up hua bahot gand wala,mein soch raha tha ki mein nikal jaunga break up se,par abhi 1.5year ke baad bhi ,chutiyon ke tarah raat ke 2 baje rota hoon,uski photo dekhta,uska 5k picture ab bhi mere private folder mein hein,mein delete hi nahin kar pa raha hoon,par woh kisi aur ke sath abhi relatioship mein hai,mein bhi 2 3 date pe try kiya,par pretend nahin ho pa raha,apne aap ko busy rakhta hoon bahot,but back of the mind uski cheezein chalti rehti hai,abhi 1 or 2 month se sirf meri galatiyan mereko yaad aati hai,mein khudko bahot blame deta hoon,self doubt ane laga hai,jabki reality woh bahot gande tarike se kaat ke gayi thi,uss time pe bhi maine sara blame leke chup reh gaya tha,ab mein kya karoon,mere ko lagta hai kya zindegi bhar aise reh jaunga..kya karoon!!!!!!!!