I don't know what to do with my life

I, 17M from india. I genuinely hate what my life has become. Firstly i had to quit school because i failed 9th grade and my dad wasn't paying the fees of my school i remember one time he cut the power when i denied to assist him at his drug store during final exams. Fault is mine too cause i didn't study good, I'm slow at everything sports work and studying. I hate myself cause of this. I see family arguing and screaming at eachother every week or some drama. I've got this job at drugstore and I've been miserable on it recently. i forget things, I'm slow, i don't understand stuff properly and other stuff. On the other hand my dad took 10k rupees from me and he still hasn't gave me my money back. And I thought of studying again but the education seems very expensive or just too complicated(i haven't even completed 10th grade neither 9th cause i failed) and here at the place i work i keep seeing rich folks enjoying their life at fullest i see teenagers enjoying and hanging out with their friends and they have everything they want while I'm here just living my miserable life. I'm stuck i don't know what to do and people here just keep making fun of me i don't know what to do.