i had zero guilt surrounding my abortion.

i joined this subreddit a couple years ago when i was 21 and had an abortion. it’s helped me a lot. one thing i’ve noticed though, is i see so many women who are extremely guilty or sad. and while i was definitely sad, it was more about sadness that i did that to myself than any sadness or grief for a potential baby. i never once felt guilty or wrong for what i did and once the abortion had taken place i felt immense relief. i never once doubted my decision before or after. i guess in my head i don’t really see it as a baby. i saw some women saying they can’t be around babies anymore. that confused me because babies and what i aborted are not the same thing. ig i could understand it if they couldn’t be around tiny bloody fetuses.. i’ve been feeling like maybe my heart is cold and dark, even my partner felt more guilt than i. he wanted the abortion just as much as me, but he cried and i never did. i hope i never have to go through an abortion again, but only because of the stress my body went through. i wish i could undo it, my poor body 💔 but i know i saved that fetus from a terrible life so i don’t think i have anything to be guilty about. am i a terrible person for feeling this way? maybe, but if i am then so be it, it’s just how i feel. i don’t think anyone should feel guilty for this.