How to continue my life

Hi people of Reddit. I’m a teenager in a country I won’t tell which one, but let’s say one in which being gay is criminalised. I have recently been feeling really really depressed and just overall I don’t know what to do. I don’t have anyone in my life I trust enough to tell this all to and the internet is probably the only way I can get any advice, period. If anyone’s in a similar spot, I’d love if anyone, literally anyone, gives any advice.
Ive heard immigration is super taxing financially and emotionally so I really don’t know what to do. From my standpoint, in most of the west, theres increasing anti immigrant rhetoric and I don’t know what to do.
What should I do now? I really am feeling lost and feel as if there’s nothing worth doing in my life.