Hi, depression and league of legends

I dont know if i can write this but i will exopose my story. I know, nobody care but i really need to talk. Im done, this “videogame” driving me crazy. Days ago i was plat 2, now im gold 1 when i deserve to win i still lose. I wanna cry. Really i cant hold myself, im drepressed cuz personal situation, im feeling better when im playing at videogame, but every time i try to play at league something goes wrong, im so addicted and i cant stop, pls riot help me