Should I be feeling self conscious?

Before dating my bf and I have always lived close to each other. We messaged on and off for a year or so, we never ended up meeting up mostly because he would stop responding. Few weeks or months later I might message again and rinse repeat. It wasn’t until a year or so later he eventually started giving me the time of day. We started talking and actually dating, now we’re happily in a 2 year relationship.

When we talk about that past period he tells me that he always thought I was attractive but just felt like I was boyfriend material and he didn’t want to mess that up, so he would stop responding or just kinda ignore me.

Idk part of me feels like if that’s true I guess it’s kinda sweet? But part of me feels like that’s kinda bs

Should I even care??