How to feel the "magic" of this game again

The story is that when I started BS2, I was overwhelmed by the size of the map, the details, and what to do in general. So I turned down the music because it was depressing and started reading guides online. This way, I "speedrunned" the game to true ending. After a year and a half, I regret not playing the entire game alone. I tried to play again, but I can't bring myself to do it, it's boring because I am familiar with the locations and dialogues. Can you help me