1 week after 10+ years daily use

I’m 36 and have been smoking daily for more than a decade. Weed has been a life saver for me at times. I have intense depression that can spiral and there are times I credit weed for keeping me around. Genuinely.

Recently I was diagnosed with autism. I am high functioning but I am beginning to explore just how much masking I’ve been doing and how weed helped me maintain an internal sense of self while wearing the personas I needed to become professionally successful. Like I could come home and drop the mask and finally be myself and smoke to reflect on life, who I really am, and what I want to be.

I am not sure exactly what my deepest internal motivations are. But it feels good so far. It’s been surprisingly not difficult. My sleep is definitely different but I am noticing more clearheadedness and like, comfort with myself. Maybe I am just accepting myself more authentically?

This sub has been interesting and inspiring and I wanted to share my experiences so far. I have been somewhat bored at times but I wanted that because I want to start doing more and finding healthier hobbies or just ways to live.

We can all do this with support from each other.