How am I suppose to keep going based off of “faith” if it feels like everything is against me right now?

Well, I feel like a pathetic mother/ person. It feels like EVERYTHING is working against me & I have no control. I know I just have to let God control this situation because honestly, I don’t think I have anymore strength. This is what has happened in the past 24 hours & I want to give up: I have came down with an upper respiratory infection. I believe it’s from all the moving & the shelter me and my 7 year old daughter were staying at.

I was able to get billed from the urgent care yesterday & they sent in an antibiotic and an inhaler. After leaving her father (my partner of 8 years) for physical hurting me, I am essentially starting over with EVERYTHING. I’ve been doing all the steps from housing , to doctors, enrolling her into school as well as starting a new job on the 11th. We have been utilizing food banks recently & walking everywhere.

I told the pharmacist that I don’t get “paid “ until Thursday , when in reality I don’t even get paid until I start my job. I just needed a few of the antibiotics until I can figure something out. My chest hurts so bad but I literally can’t afford the antibiotics as well as the $22 inhaler & that’s after a coupon was applied. My daughter’s birthday was Sunday and we couldn’t do much, so there was no way I would feel right if I couldn’t do anything for her.

I am just happy to be hours away from him & safe, but I feel absolutely terrible for lying to that pharmacist . I know He will guide me through all of this but I am so TIRED. Tired of looking over my shoulder constantly. I’m exhausted.