I’m unsure if my dad is toxic…

this isn’t a main account, just for ranting!! this will also contain mentions of SH, and offing myself, click or scroll away if needed and stay safe 🩷

So I’m 16, and have been recently collecting the mass of evidence that my dad might be toxic.

First off, he has verbally stated that he doesn’t trust or respect me, also saying I don’t deserve privacy and never allowed me to lock my bedroom door until recent for when I’m changing bc he’s walked in on me MULTIPLE TIMES. And to the trust, I have lied in the past, mainly for more phone use and another thing that I will discuss soon, but I have never overly lied to him.

Secondly, I’m lgbt and he has thought for a good bit of time that I was either following a trend or lying, and he refuses to use my primary pronouns (it/he) and I don’t know why.

Thirdly, im also a plethora of neurodivergence, having diagnosed autism and self-diagnosed ADHD, and has always insisted comfort items were crutches, and also insists I won’t have my accommodations in adult life, which I don’t quite believe because the main accommodation is headphones.

Finally, I am mentally ill. I have depression, generalized anxiety disorder, and self diagnosed ARFID. I have been insecure since young, why? my father. my dad told me to diet , forced me to eat dieted meals, and constantly said he didn’t want me to get fat from eating bread, from this I constantly weighed myself and tried to not eat as much. He also constantly insisted a smelled, like to point I felt humiliated in front of anyone he said so around. With having ARFID my meal items are incredibly small, and he always insisted I should just force it down, while getting made when I did, and also insisting I got in my own head and FORCED MYSELF TO PUKE just to be “dramatic“. And the only other thing I lied to him about? Hurting myself. I cut my wrists and thighs, mainly with sewing pins and by the end a small shaving blade, and he never noticed. And I didn’t hide it well, my mom and (ex)stepmom knew, my (ex)stepsister was one of the first to know! And when I finally told him about how I wanted to kill myself, he laughed. he thought I was joking. I was in 8th grade and he was threatening to take away doing theater, which was the last source of joy I had at the time. I had almost taken my life a few nights before, I’d left my toxic ex best friend, my online friends were stripped from me, and when I begged him to not take away the last thing because I wanted to kill myself and it was keeping me alive, and he laughed to my face.

Not to mention my ex step family was entirely toxic, verbally abusing me and my ex step sister SAing me, overall I’m almost sure he’s toxic and abusive but I need other people’s insight, am I right or am I overthinking/overreacting?