About the feeling of the wish fulfilled

Long time Goddardite here.

Being aware and reminding/choosing who I am throughout the day is my favorite method, if you can call it that. SATs, affirmations, etc were fun to me 10 years ago, but now they seem pointless.

I can always feel what it’s like to be or have whatever I want… at first. The first few days I can feel myself to be who I want to be without struggle, anytime anywhere. It feels like knowing, certainty, calmness, and there’s an underlying sensation of a very elevated peace as a result (not forced). It feels extremely powerful and good, but I never lead with emotions, just knowing.

The problem is I *always* lose that feeling of knowing after the first week or two, and when I pivot/redirect I can no longer conjure that sensation of certainty. It’s not that I doubt, I just feel… nothing? I feel the same I did a moment ago. For this reason I have found myself quitting and coming back, and quitting and coming back for years. Since the feeling of the wish fulfilled IS what determines reality (and not the 3D) I just conclude I’m no longer doing it correctly if there’s no feeling anymore.

Is this the naturalness people talk about? I’m always baffled when I read stories of people being able to keep up with this feeling for months until the entirety of their desire manifests, but perhaps I’m misinterpreting what they actually *feel*. Note that the 3D is not an indicator for me, but only my state of consciousness since that is the only reality.