How is the cuckold fantasy trigger a submissive husband

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I am 40 years married man and wife is 37 years old. 14 years are over to our arranged marriage. I have below average penis around 8 cm (3.2 inches) when fully erected with very tight foreskin. I have been submissive since teenage and I was exposed to porn very early and I had my first gay encounter with my class mate just out of curiosity and early exposure to porn. Due to rise of internet in early 2000 , I was  soaked into porn websites , i used to spend many hours of weekends in cyber cafe exploring various types of porn's most of the time I used to jerk off in cafe itself and copy the porn clips or videos in a floppy disks to enjoy at home. I had my second and last gay encounter with my hostel roommate where I was his a little slut and I used to often blow him till he cums on my face or body. Soon the internet was available to my home, my room when i was just 19 years old. I used to show my body to strangers over cam and perform as per their wish. Most of the viewers were men and very few women too. I got a medium to express my submissiveness. It got continues till my marriage was fixed.

Once our marriage was fixed, I used to call my fiance over a video call as we were both in different cities. I did not tell her my past. Soon I showed her my full body with my small dick on the webcam. I also showed her myself shoving candle and toothbrush in my ass. She enjoyed it. I requested her to fuck my ass with finger or a big object and she readily accepted it.

Soon we met before marriage, and she inserted her fingers into my ass, encircled it till I cummed by stroking my cock. She was smiling at me. We got married and had our honeymoon there also she fingered my ass and pissed over me as per my request. However I hardly manage to penetrate her in our honeymoon.

We got busy in our married life and four years were over. I confessed about my submissive nature to my wife and my history of cyber sex and gay encounters with my school and college friends. I requested her to make me her obedient slave and servant. I also told her that my cock is below average, after hearing this she said that's why she was wondering why she is not feeling my cock inside her.

Since then our femdom relationship began, she took the charge slowly and over last ten years I have been her loyal servant and servant. Meanwhile, we experimented different sex toys too. We started our femdom blog on internet that time. The response was huge, we used to upload lot of photos involving femdom act without showing our faces. One day she gave me blow job and i clicked some pics. I uploaded few pics on internet with face blurred. After few weeks, she got a message on her face book from a stranger fake account, with a picture of he blowing my cock which we had posted on our blog. We both got scared and deleted the blog. Someone had identified her.

I was shocked, when I reversed search that image , I found my wife's photos were already viral on few audlt forums . Those pics were taken before marriage may be when she was in college. Majority of pics were normal and few were nude and semi nude. I was stunned to see this. But suddenly I found my cock is raised I went to bathroom and jerked off few times just looking at those pics of my wife.

Next day I told my wife what i found. She was scared and told me one guy, when she was in a college, proposed her for marriage but she refused his proposal. The guy somehow had her normal photos copied from her mobile and he might have photo shopped to take revenge. I was shocked with her story. But those pics are so real that I turned into a submissive cuckold and i started imagining my wife to be fucked by a big cock.

Since then our femdom bond was strengthen and she introduced a chastity device to me. Our actual sex became very rare and she forcing me to finger her or lick her. My masturbation was stopped and i am or cum denial for many months. 120 Days is my highest while 25 days is minimum. She barely touches my cock as she used to touch before my confession. She traps my cock between her two fingers when she wants and tortures my balls and shaft harshly.

I am enjoying serving her as my mistress with a deep cuckold fantasy in my mind.