Can I just get a BREAK from these emotional blows?

10 months ago - she decides she's completely, utterly done with no coming back because she wants 'freedom and independence, no relationship'

7 months ago - she 'forces' me to petition for divorce

4 months ago - she cries and begs to come home for Xmas because she's 'made a mistake'

2 months ago - I come home to find she's been celebrating our divorce being accepted with "a friend"

1 month ago - she moves out, abandons her dogs with me which almost forces me to rehome them

2 weeks ago - she reveals she's been seeing someone else for at least 3 months, introduced them to our kids already

today - see her walking down the road hand-in-hand with her new bloke without a care in the world

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I feel like any time I start to find my feet again they are swept up underneath me. I just want to be at peace.