Remind me why I shouldn't go back

Hey you guys

I slowly pulled away from the ✨LDS✨ church after high school. Mainly because I discovered I was non-binary and that my sexual preferences were not in line with what they thought they should be. Since leaving I have noticed myself happier and noticed how weird things were in the church. Like missionary being nothing more than brainwashing.

That said, I still live in my hometown and keep contact with my family who stayed in the church. So I often am put in situations where I come in contact with the church's culture. I don't want to go back. I know I don't. But sometimes I find myself reminiscing on the good parts and wondering if maybe I should give them another chance. Or maybe I should just humour my parents and go. I hate these thoughts. I know it's the internalised teachings I learned as a kid that I've been trying to fight.

Can you just give me all the reasons I don't want to return. Remind me why that is a terrible idea.