From 60mg to 0,25mg in 2 months, can't function

After 3 years of way out of hand use of benzos I went from around 30-60mg to 0,25mg in 2 months. It was too fast and irresponsible but I was desperate. I had no guidance and unfortunately I still don't. I'm now 7 months on this dose and I barely get out of my room. Only for food and that's pretty hard too. I do it when my family's not around. I can't tolerate anything. The first few months I was in shock so I could function a bit. Now no. I'm in my room all day and I'm eating way less. I sleep pretty bad so when I wake up I'm waiting for my family to leave the room or whatever because it overwhelms me too much. Instead of eating 3 metals a day I eat one or one and a half. Very broken. The last month things got pretty fucked up I need noice canceling headphones to stop hearing all the noise from downstairs, like utensils people talking it makes me wanna hit myself things are bad

. I was told my taper caught up on me. Even feeling the 0,25mg sedating me and then feeling the crash. Lately I don't feel it that much. A couple hours ago I was clenching my hand into a claw to release pressure. I tried not to hit my head cause sometimes I did it. Sound, light, people made me so bad that I have to hit myself. Throw my self to the wall, scratch it, bite an object, hit my head to the wall. It's been happening way too often the past month and I can't do it anymore. My emotions are all over the place. Today it's worse. Crying all day, fortunately I can cry because sometimes only self harm kind of helps. I'm gonna call a psychiatrist tomorrow but we have an appointment in 20 days and I can't wait till then. I thought about going to 0,5mg instead of 0,25mg but I don't know how I will react and how bad it'll be. Unfortunately I can't talk to anyone about it. I told my mother but she already knew and just said take a little more . I feel like all these months were wasted if I take more. I don't wanna depend on the dose. I'm so sensitive that I feel the peak the crash everything so taking more will be unpredictable and idk... I feel so hopeless and helpless. I'm scared the doctor won't be able to help me cause he is busy and I don't even know him. I only talked with his secretary.

I'm so isolated, I can't even eat right, take care of myself or tolerate a conversation without getting cold extremities not being able to follow or even function. I know it's a very messy post, I'm helpless and I don't know what to do. Im so alone and I know taking a little more could help but I don't know how I will react. I even thought about taking buprenorphine that I quit months ago because I can handle all this.

The situation is out of control I know, but Iit's not that much to go to a hospital, but I don't know anymore. I just need to find a doctor to guide me, but it's so bad.