am i lesbian/bi??

ok. iv always kinda wondered about this. In middle school I thought I had a crush on this girl, looking back maybe I just liked her a lot as a friend, I’m not sure. I’ve never been with a girl romantically, and I can’t image being in a relationship with a girl either (I’ve only ever dated guys). However, (this might sound stupid sorry lol) I find myself sooo obsessed with watching girls kiss on youtube or watching music videos with lesbian girls and I think about kissing and touching girls and it does turn me on very much (probably more than if I were to fantasize about men), but I don’t know if that’s because it’s sexual in general ifykwim. I fantasize about girls (not anyone in particular just idk someone i’d meet) but I don’t know if this is just something in my head or I want it in real life, I’ve never really met a girl I’ve WANTED to kiss. I’ve kissed and even made out with girls but I didn’t really enjoy it because they were my friends and I didn’t feel anything for them. But then again thinking about boobs and being intimate with a girl seems incredible to me. Ive always felt women were generally more beautiful and special than men but I don’t think that would necessarily indicate I’m lesbian. At the same time, idk if i’m so curious about it because it feels new and forbidden (since I’m technically straight). Sorry guys, I feel like this all sounds kinda stupid. Anyway lmk what you think and how you realized you were into girls.