Idk what's wrong with me

I cant love. It hurts me sm because I just physically cant. Ive never had a crush never loved anyone whether platonic or romantic. I was in a long distance relationship recently the only relationship ive ever been in and she loved me sm and yet when we had to break it off I didnt feel anything. She kept on hurting and trying to contact me but I felt no sympathy. When my great grandma died I felt nothing. I feel as if im a sociopath for not feeling anything. When I was a really really young kid I was raised to suppress my emotions my mom is bipolar we a incident happened and I have distanced myself as much as I can from her. And it feels so crazy because my father isnt any better hes got anger issues and yet I still dont feel. My dad gets really angry at me for it because I dont feel anything whenever it comes to important things I just dont care and he absolutely hates me for that. Idk what's wrong with me I think im either crazy or just broken I just cant anymore.