At least he finally told the truth

Well after having a calm discussion (on his end, I was devastated) he told me he would never quit, if he promised to quit he would be lying, and that there is nothing I can do or say to convince him otherwise. He said that he needs variety, only looking at me is similar to eating the same type of food for the rest of his life, and that he wants to do it because sometimes he does not want the emotional investment attached to sex. He got all of this from chat gpt and him trying to justify it that way. This entire time he’s spent telling me he was getting better for me, that he hated what it did to me, that it was gross, and I was worth it. He never meant any of it. He told me men that don’t watch porn don’t exist and that the people I’ve been with that didn’t, were actually just lying to me. I would just have to accept it if I want to be with him because he has “boy brain”.

He’s spent all of our time together reassuring me, he’s told me not to send him naked pictures because it would be “pointless” since he’s not masturbating anymore, turns out he was doing it at the same time. He told me that he didn’t need therapy since he had no issues with self control or stopping something cold turkey. I knew that was a lie, I’ve seen all the unicorn posts. I just wanted to believe him. I wanted to believe I’d be more important. He told me last night that in those moments, he only thought of himself and didn’t care what I wanted.

The person I’ve been with this entire time never existed.

Edit to include that before even dating, I told him I was not okay with it in a relationship and he told me that he always thought it was gross and wanted to stop anyways. He said he only did it because he was single and in his prior relationship they were like roommates. I wonder why.

Sorry for the rant, I just have no one to talk to about this.