Post T18 TFMR - Looking for answers

Hi all. We recently TFMRed with our angel baby when she was 19 weeks and 5 days. She had mosiac trisomy 18 and was incompatible with life. I miss her so much it hurts.

I want a baby so desperately. I am hoping to bring a happy and healthy baby to this earth. I am looking for answers as to why our baby had mosiac trisomy 18. Was it a "rescue event" or a random miotic error. No one can help me with this. Any doctors we have spoken to have shrugged and said "bad luck". I hate that response so much. My baby was not bad luck. I will love her for my whole life.

I am wondering if anyone has any insight into the best way to get answers on why this happened, and how it can be avoided moving forward?

Signed,

A broken woman who just desperately wants to be a Mom