[F4A] A hot, realistic conversation

Would love an actual penal to pass time with that shares some of my kinks. I’m interested in: bimbofication, exotic dancing, collars, male chastity, punishments, brat behavior, intelligence and bdsm. Limits: orgasm control and anal.

Starting strong with bimbofication. It’s been on mind over the years, while my perspective on it has changed, my interest remains the same. I love the perfect embodiment of femininity, minus the over-the-top surgeries and fillers and obsession with sex. I like looking sexy, not thinking too much and the idea of being owned. It’s like art, enduring so much pain to become something to be marveled at. The surgical markings, recovering time and the general idea of undergoing elective surgery for the sake of vanity. It’s excessive but worth the effort. I’ve done the gooning and slutty clothes, surgeries are out of the question but going blonde is the next milestone. I grew up with the picture perfect image of blonde bombshells and while I’m black, it doesn’t stop me from enjoying it in my own way. I don’t want to be anyone else just a perfect version of myself.

That ties in quite well with exotic dancing, sorta. It’s not nearly as much… effort as the bimbo thing but it’s still a lifestyle change. I got the pole and the outfits but I stalled out there. The heels are too big and is it worth getting the right size just to not actually go out and dance? Or do I send it, actually become a dancer and see how long I last? Maybe I’d actually like it and feel free from the pressure of a traditional job. It’d be an adjustment and it’s not something that would happen overnight but it’d be a new experience, for sure.

There isn’t much to say on collars besides I have one and like the symbolism of belonging to myself. I wear it every now and then but it’s not super exciting.

Submissive guys locking themselves up in their cages for me? Chef’s kiss, no notes. it only counts when it’s a genuine and desperate urge; it’s a kink I’d try to pass off on someone who wasn’t into it.

Punishments is a new addition. I can admit, I didn’t always enjoy being assigned punishments and carrying them out. It really isn’t very impactful with distance but under the right circumstances, the discomfort and desire to be good wins. I finished the Housemaid earlier and if there was ever an award for creative punishments, we all know who would win that. I’ve never even thought of non-sexual punishments as being arousing but there’s something about centering a punishment as a correction to bad behavior. It’s so intimate and memorable, really involving the senses into it. Bearing the weight of textbooks, overwhelming darkness or light, hair pulling, bladder and food restriction. I don’t want to give away spoilers but I’m definitely fascinated with that psychological aspect.

Segue from psychology to intelligence. I love smarts. There’s something to be said about someone that prides themselves on and appreciates intellect. Whether it’s the vocabulary, subject or interpretation, it just adds another layer of depth to make a good conversation great. Having something I can really dig my teeth into and lavish? Nothing could be tastier.

I skipped over brat behavior but it only makes sense to delve into alongside bdsm. I’ve never had a strict dynamic with rules and routines, it’s only been the general vibe. Filling the role as my partner takes the opposite, whatever that may be. I’m naturally submissive, it comes to me easily and is how I’d describe myself in daily life. I like being of assistance to others, trying to anticipate needs and following someone else’s lead. It doesn’t feel draining, I’m just used to it and have liked being doted on. Not to say that I have no backbone at all or don’t have domineering desires. I’ve enjoyed the Dominant role from time to time, it can be rewarding in its own way but is much more exhausting. It doesn’t recharge me and isn‘t in my nature. What I’ve realized over time, if I don’t feel submissive to someone that wants or expects me to be, we can end up butting heads. I‘ve challenged authority here and there, sometimes in a harmless way to earn myself discipline and in others, it’s just mismatch of Dom/sub style. If it’s fun for the both of us, I wouldn’t mind a playful dynamic, but if it doesn’t seem to work then we can just accept our differences.

All in all, I want a fun conversation that we’re both excited about. It’d be nice if it was an ongoing conversation. There’s so much to talk about, we don’t have to limit it to those kinks but we should have something in common.