Making my body my own

I’m getting closer to the goal of my weightloss journey and my doctor has already started the process for when I would need surgery(for loose skin as I am currently 120lbs down total) and I’ve teetered on this idea but the more I realize how completely fucked she made me it’s solidified my choice.

I refuse to take the artificial belly button they can create if wanted. I am going to not have any reminders of my mother or anything she did to me physically present after I reach this step. I can always tattoo a fake belly button later if it’s too uncanny valley. But being able to get rid of the last thing on me that connected me to her feels really… freeing and I’m looking forward to that day.