My ex feels like an addiction at times

I can't go back to her but sometimes I genuinely feel like I'd give anything to go back there and experience it all again.

It sucks because she wasn't right for me and I wasn't right for her.

We are incompatible in so many ways but god damnit I miss the way she used to hold me and the way she'd sound when she picked up one of my phone calls.

I'm just tired of feeling this way because we've been broken up for a few years but my mind still wanders back to her. I don't think it's love, I think I'm just bored and that's why it happens.

I feel like there's genuinely something wrong with me for feeling all of this still after so long.