Today Is one of those days that you feel off and nothing is Right..



One year ago my ex husband cheated and I feel like a part of me got lost.. I'm so angry at myself because I was in a really good point in my life.. work was well, I was working out, on track to complete a masters and... this happens... I feel there is a Before/After version of me.

I tried so hard to make it work, went to theraphy, conseling and so and ex still chose the Other woman in October....

We were together for over 16 years and I feel like that injury hasnt healed..

I have tried dating but I'm very shy/introvert/low self steem and keep mostly to myself and went into the Dating Apps.. ( this is 6months after my separation).

I've met guys but most of them just want sex and casual stuff and I feel like I'm drowning.. I feel like I'm unlovable... I feel unchoosen..

I've kept working out and eating clean and I've lost 15 pounds but I feel hopeless... Like I am a 35 yo woman with a good career, ok looking but I still feel worthless...

I have friends but I only see them once a week and I work from home which can turn in almost a week w/o physically talking to someone..

I know I should get used to my loneliness before dating again because I will only attract guys that take advantage of me but.. It's so hard.... some days I just want to cry and curl up and it's starting to affect my work.

Lonely Empanadas