When does the newborn stage get easier

New baby is only two weeks old.

Here after having my first 3 years ago i thought this would be easy but two weeks in and holy shit i want to curl up in a corner and cry.

Baby has day/night confusion, GERD, super bad acid reflux and to tack it all on he’s currently cluster feeding. And im doing this alone because dad is away for work.

Between hallucinating from lack of sleep and surviving off coffee while awake, barely having time to eat i feel like im at my wits end.

When does this shit get easier????

Ive been doing good with sleeping when he sleeps, but it just doesnt feel like enough sleep. Im waking up feeling like im wading through water most nights.

I thought i would have this in the bag after having one, having experience, knowing what i needed to do. But second one comes and its like i relearning things again.

Being alone makes this worse.

I feel like im going to lose it.