i’m ending it tonight

i’m tired, i’m exhausted, im weak and im broken. I can’t afford my rent, I can’t afford food, I can’t afford gas, i can’t even afford tissue to wipe my ass I have to take a roll from work every few days. i haven’t ate in 2 days just surviving off tea and graham crackers my job provides. Ive reached out for help but as a 21yo woman there’s no assistance unless you have kids in which I do not. I’ve asked my church for help in paying rent but was denied. I called 211 and was told I don’t qualify. I lived in my car for months before being able to afford an apartment but then I lost my job and this is why i’m in the situation i’m in now. I worked so hard for nothing. I went hungry for nothing. I subjected myself to abuse and mistreatment for nothing. this isn’t the life I want to live. i’m tired of struggling. I’m tired. i got served a pay or quit and I have until tomorrow to remit payment or I get evicted. i have no where to go. I have no immediate family, no friends. nothing. I surrendered my cat this morning in hopes she’ll find a loving home. my note is written. my mind is made up. im tired of fighting I don’t want to fight anymore.