Isolation

Why do I love isolation but hate loneliness?
I feel so lonely all the time and I feel like I don’t have any real friends and feel so alone all the time I just want it to end sometimes.
I see my friends making new ones and I hate feeling so different from them. People think I’m mean and rude because I don’t talk or hang out with them, but I just like to be by myself and I feel so misunderstood. People just ruin my entire day everytime I speak to them, maybe I’m too sensitive?
I like to read and write in my free time, it’s my favourite thing.
All of my friends g we into relationships and I’m all alone, and I know it’s my fault I don’t get out there, but I just want somebody who gets me. I want someone whether it’s a relationship or a friend just to… get me.