AIO I screamed at my dad about the stupidity thing today, but honestly, I think it’s underlying a bigger issue.

my father has always been a cold man I suppose, but the thing is, he’s so hypocritical and so harsh from time to time. I have a cold mind, but a very weak heart, and I can be emotionally irrational easily. This usually leads to me having emotional outburst, or something else.

Im still a teen btw, not some grown women. my birthday is coming up and I talked to my dad about this thing I just I really wanted, really not that serious (gaming system- ik im a fucking chud 😭). He’s gone back and forth one getting me one bc my brother already has one. However, my brother is a brat, he gets a new system every year, and the only system I’ve had is my Nintendo switch from around 2021. Additionally, he always gets his system taken away, as he doesn’t know how to behave in school, and is constantly crude (younger than me but old enough to know better 🫡). As there is limited areas to place this system, I regarded that and did research, saying I would pay for a monitor so I could put in near the desk in my room. We discussed this, about how despite him having one I actually really wanted one. And how the reason when I was younger i restrained on getting one was because of the pricing and the stress I didn’t want to put on him.

I explained this to him after he lied to me in the fit of his own emotion, saying he planned to give me my brothers system for his terrible behavior. Took it back after he claimed he planned on “working on it”. Spolier: he hasn’t gotten any better. After being upset with his claims, I explained to him I didn’t want to share my brothers system ( bc he offered that) because my brother didn’t hold maturity not to go through my stuff and compromise my saves. Additionally, I’m 5 years older than him, so the games we play are very different. He however always wants to play more mature games, and I know hell take advantage of this convergence anyway.

After explaining to him, he understood, said he’d talk about it to my brother, never did, and now it’s right before my birthday. I show him my list and he just scoffs, and explains how I’m not getting that because we already have one in the house. I’m confused, because I’ve already built my list to this and assumed he would get it considering we talked about it and he never conferred with my brother. He explained how I should just forget about it, soI refer to all the times we talked about this and I expressed my actual feelings to him at this moment. He taunted me, explains how he never said he’d be the one to pay for it and then brother interjects for whatever reason so now I’m ticked off.

At this point, it’s not even about the system, it’s just about how he has such a cold, ignorant mind to ignore what we personally discussed over and over again. It’s always hard for me to actually express how I’m feeling to people from time to time, so I lowkey thought it was stupid to get passionate about this entire thing. I dropped it after my outburst and just got over it.

Yes I have enough money to pay for this system, but considering the amount my father pays for my brothers systems, it just seem ridiculous. Whenever I complain about how he gets all this stuff he just says “He asked for it for his birthday, you do the same and you’ll get it” so him mentioning this just pissed me off. It’s such a stupid thing ik, but this isn‘t the first time he pulled something like this, he’s been doing this since I’ve been a kid, and I’m fed up.

Anyways gotta study for ap exams! 🫡 Lmk, am I AIO or should I just eat the bullet or however the saying goes.