Advice please

I’m not good at story telling guys kaya pls bear with me 😞
I’m so sad with my situation rn. I’m so torn on going to eu with my husband. We’ve been ldr for almost 10yrs now and married for 6 yrs. Planning to go to there na next week sana. This week umuwi yung husband ko para sunduin kmi ng anak ko but to my surprise feeling ko hnd siya excited 😞 Keep on asking him whats the problem or what wala daw, di daw nya maintinidhan sarili nya tapos kanina hiniram ko phone nya ayaw nya ibigay. Nag ooverthink ako malala kung ano ba ang dapat ko gawin 😞😞

For other context; may cheating issue na kmi 4yrs ago. Nagcheat siya.

Im so sad ang tagal ko hinintay na makapag sama kami. Hindi ko na tuloy alam kung sasama ba kmi kasi baka doon ko malaman lahat. And at the same time nanghihinyang ako sa oppurthnity para sa anak ko.