never good enough

i feel like i can never do anything "right". whatever i do, there's ALWAYS gonna be some sort of complaint from my narc egg donor. if i do something a different way so as to avoid said complaint, another complaint pops up, and if i ever tell the woman to do anything i am the worst, most horrible, rude, ungrateful daughter in the whole wide fucking world. i am sick and TIRED of this i might just end up >!killing myself (not actually) !<before i go insane

genuinely does anybody have any advice on what/how i can do things to avoid complaints? i am currently only aware of the grey rock behaviour which i am doing (as good as i can, still learning) anything LITERALLY anything is appreciated