30 [M4F] Why are some "mean" girls so fun ?

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I think there is this particular kind of mean girl. She is hot, she sleeps around, she is smart. She likes breaking societal expectations.

These are always interesting women. They often have a great read of emotions or are very emotionally intelligent.

I should...stay away from some women. It's only natural I think? But due a certain experience (involving RuneScape of all things!) I um ...kinda want to experience it again? Well at least in a very certain way

Its a Pavlovian reaction so I can't help it. I have been told what I like is toxic behaviour but I can't help but like it !

I feel like you ,the reader, should also get a chance to judge if it's "toxic" to like a :

smart, emotionally intelligent and emotionally sadistic, controlling/dominant, high sex drive and low respect for monogamy and is an unabashed size...preferer?

Especially as a man who has :

no experience (never even kissed), emotionally masochistic, not gifted down there.

So what do you think ? is this a bad idea ? should I continue looking for someone like this ? Are YOU someone like this ?

I hope we can have a fun chat!