11th grader breaking down everyday due to being so lost in life. Please help

So I scored 89% in 10th and for a week I have been going to school in the humanities + maths stream because that’s what I thought interests me.

There are only 8 people in my class and they all are bad/mid students. Now I’m having a mental breakdown every single day because I have no idea what the hell I’m doing.

I’ve suffered from chronic self esteem issues and anxiety for a long time and I genuinely never thought I would get this far in life, so now I’m completely aimless in life and the thought of going out into the world is killing me every single day. The thought of being with these students in my class for the next 2 years and, all the smart kids went to PCM and now they keep asking me “bhai arts kaise le liya”

I’m at a point where I wish my parents just forced me into PCM.. it would’ve been simpler that way. I have no idea what I want to do or where I want to go in life. This is sucking the life out of me. I don’t know how long the mask will stay up. Should I just bite the bullet and go into pcm? That feels like the safe choice atleast.

I thought that psychology is what interests me, but that was all general stuff related to me figuring out what the hell is wrong with me personally. I don’t like this bookish approach towards it. I’m so confused and I’m so scared because I’m running out of time. I have 2 weeks to feasibly change my stream if I want to. I’m going to be miserable either way. I’m so tired. What is the point of living if I’m never going to be sure of what the hell I even wanna do. Am I gonna be a bum unemployed leech who is a burden to his parents with a useless liberal arts degree? I don’t know. I have no idea. Please help me, anything, please.