IM SO CLOSE TO BREAK MYSELF TW!

I (25F) is so close to going crazy and do things that I dont usually do. I can't get a job, I am out of the country, my boyfriend broke up with me, I am losing my savings, I am a dead weight to the family, my friends are planning an outing, my siblings are getting their jobs.

WHY NOT ME!? I am sending resumes and resumes and resumes on 2 countries. Editing, improving, interacting with different people.

I feel dead. I feel my world is ending and so close to an attempt. It feels like I lost all my anchors. I have no Job for almost 5 months. I have nothing to prove, nothing to give, nothing.