(Breast) Health Anxiety

I just need to vent this out, or even find some fellow women who are currently in this horrible loop.

I recently found out I have breast mass and my doctors and radiologist seems to be relaxed everytime I have a check up. Now, what I do all day was just to google and even read a lot of forums about it here in reddit or in facebook. My next scan is on June (3rd month follow up) and I just want to pull the days and get it done already. My health anxiety is so bad right now that its making me think of the worst scenarios. I cant stop touching my breasts, I cant stop thinking about it. I’m afraid I might manifest this as it already messed up my mens last April. I keep searching on some things that I can do to prevent the disease I’m dreading. I’m so afraid of it.

Now, I’m trying to drink green tea everyday, exercise, vitamins, being hopeful that I may get rid of it. Or at least let it stay behave.

Peace of mind is really expensive.